Sunday, September 21, 2014

11:57 PM

Time : 11:57 PM

Riyaz lit a cigarette. His office was on the top floor of that old, dark red highrise. And he was standing near the stairs to the terrace. It had been a long day for him. Almost the entire hierarchy of his superiors had had a screaming session with him, for a faulty production decision he had taken last week. It had resulted in the company losing a good deal of money. It was only due to his status as a star performer and the fact that this was the only mistake that he had ever committed that had enabled him to escape the hatchet. As the cigarette slowly fell off as ash, Riyaz thought about his job and childhood dream. It wasn't remotely related. He had always wanted to become an astronomer. Even as a kid, the thing that made him the happiest had been gazing at the stars and the constellations. One thought led to another and the cigarette reduced itself to a stub. He dropped it and stamped on it.  As he was about to go back to the office, he noticed that the terrace door was ajar.

Time : 11:57:30 PM

Rahul was in his bed. He was unable to sleep. The creaky fan and the ceiling paint which was about to peel off did not exactly soothe away his tensed thoughts. He had been out of a job for the past three months. The house owner had given him some leeway initially with respect to the rent because Rahul knew him well. But, he had prolonged it too much. And, the owner was getting impatient. He turned sideways. Suma was sleeping peacefully. She was the silver lining of his life. He took a deep breath. They had promised themselves not to have any kids till the situation stabilised. She had a small part-time job as a stenographer in a firm nearby. His thoughts went to the job interview that was scheduled for tomorrow. His old friend, Nair, would be in the interview panel. He envied him. They both passed out from the same local engineering college but he had managed to reach a high position within a short span of five years. Nair knew him well enough. He knew that Rahul had all the necessary skills required for the job and communication was his only problem. But, Rahul was sure about tomorrow as the job itself did not need much communication skills. Besides, Nair was there. Tomorrow, he would write a new chapter in his life.

Time : 11:57:45 PM

The car raced through the empty streets. Sanjay was driving at breakneck speeds. No. He was not exactly a rash driver. But, Jacob was lying injured in the backseat. Ranjith was also there at the back trying to talk to Jacob, gently encouraging him. It had been a really bad accident. The three of them had gone on a trip to the nearby beach. They had always loved the beach. It had been a reunion of sorts that day in the city they called home. It had been almost two years since they had gone their different ways. And as usual today, inspite of having a car, Jacob wanted to take his bike out. Even though, there were only three people. Sanjay clenched his jaw. He was not really accustomed to high speeds. There were not many cars on the road at this time of the hour. But, any unexpected diversions or incidents, could completely mess up his driving at this speed. It could lead to an even worse catastrophe. Sanjay took a glance at the back of the car. He blinked his eyes for a fraction of a second and pressed the accelerator. He would reach that familiar dark red landmark in around one and a half minute at this speed. A hundred meters beyond that was the hospital.

Time : 11:58:30 PM

Nair was sipping a Bloody Mary at his friend's party. The disco was filled with his people but he was sitting beside one of the tables in a thoughtful reverie. He and Anjali had another quarrel today. It was a minor one. But, the frequency of such quarrels had been increasing lately. He had a feeling that Anjali was not telling him something. It was true that he had been spending less time with her but it was not like she had any mush syndromes. She had always been a partial tomboy, plucky and beautiful. Enough so, to sweep a relatively no-nonsense person like him off his feet. He smiled. He would make up to her, he decided. He would have a frank talk with her tomorrow night. He sipped some more of the Bloody Mary.

Time : 11:59:15 PM

The cold, night wind gently lashed at Anjali's open hair. She looked at the view beneath her. The city was relatively silent that night. She closed her eyes. She could see Nair's face. A droplet of tear slowly ran down from her right eye down the entire length of her right cheeks. She slowly moved towards the building ledge. The ledge was a shade darker than the dark red paint, which enveloped the outside of that building, where the small boutique she managed was situated. She had no idea why she was doing it. It wasn't worth it. But, her mind was numb and her feet kept egging her on. She loved Nair, she was sure. He loved her as well. The thoughts which were consuming her should have never existed in the first place. Her feet almost reached the edge. A seemingly infinite bottom beckoned to her. She, standing at the highest point in the building, felt swayed. She did not even hear the blazing car horn, whose volume was slowly increasing.

Time : 11:59:20 PM, IST, Earth Time

In one corner of the cosmos, the thing some people called God, some others called Fortune and yet others called the Universe, smiled to itself. It never was omnipotent or omniscient or omnipresent as many in the cosmos believed. It was more like a gambler, who was able to roll a couple of dices here and there, do some dirty tricks, change a couple of digits in the many equations. However, the interesting thing was that it always gambled in a similar manner. When it rolled those dices, it rolled them keeping faith in a particular variable called the human spirit. It hadn't yet counted its win and losses. But, with the widest possible grin, it rolled the dices again and gambled for that resolute race called humans in that very highly random cosmic game. 

Friday, September 19, 2014

Crumpled Sexiness

"Crumpled Sexiness."
"Crumpled Sexiness?"
"Yeap. It's like this. The moment she wakes up from sleep and puts away the crumpled sheets, when her hair is messed up and eyes are barely open and look flushed and her face has that special sleepy tone to it, if she is at her sexiest then, that's the sort of girl I'll fall for. Of course, that is only when you are taking looks into consideration. There are the other stuff too."
"That just seems a bit too filmy. People look like shit when they wake up."
"Aah. Hmm. Maybe, I got the cause-effect relation wrong. I guess, if I look at her then and feel awed, I must have fallen for her hook, line and sinker. But, there is something to that face that she usually hesitates from showing to the rest of the world and yet doesn't give a damn about when she is with you."
"I do like the brutally honest opinion. Much better than the usual ones where guys keep trumpeting how they fell for the personality and yada yada. I mean that might be true in case of people who have been friends for long. But, bullcrap-ish otherwise.Waise, one more thing. Do tell me how you going to decide to who to pursue with that criteria for look?Are you going to peek into their bedrooms?"
"Aye. It wouldn't help in deciding. It's like a check. If you are in a relationship, you decide whether you are really in that relationship by deciding, whether you like them in their rawness and in their worst moods."
"But, I was asking how you decide who to pursue? Is it just testosterone?That fleeting second and you decide, she's the one. Or is there some rational process? Like a checklist?"
"Ey. Don't make it logical and un-romantic. There is no rational process. The falling-for is irrational. Always. That's why there are so many heartburns around. The getting-up is part is rational. You don't get to make a logical decision as to who to fall for. I guess you just wing it. You fall and get-up and make a routine out of it till you get your crumpled-sexiness."
"Hmm. Fine. Fine. But how should the first scene play out? I think the movie one's the best. I want something akin to that in real life. The girl walks in slowly. Her hair is flowing in the wind. He is leaning against a tree. He sees her and voila."
"No."
"No?"
"It should be more like you are doing some mundane task with a friend of yours and you look at her face. And then you remember every part of that friendship that has lasted for quite some time and then suddenly you see her differently. Voila."
"Whaaat? Why no love-at-first-sight?"
"Not rational."
"Oye. Stop contradicting yourself. You said it's never rational and now you are saying I have to know the person."
"Well, it's not. But it doesn't mean you should be stupid and go horny over random people on the road. And however much you know a person, it's still winging."
"Oho. And, what if you never find your crumpled sexiness?Or worse, the crumpled sexiness just doesn't feel the same about you?"
"Well, there is the Everest to climb. Then, there is bungee jumping in Switzerland. You can go on a a bike-ride to North-East India or skinny dip in Gokarna. You can write a novel. Go on a bike trip. Drink up with your friends and talk crazy-shit and do-crazier-shit. Or, not drink up and do the same."
"Cliched."
"Maybe."
"Arranged?"
"My foot. The trailer can never tell you whether the movie will be a hit."
"Come to think of it, bungee jumping does seem a better choice rather than all this jazz."
 Her friend grinned and winked. He then drew himself close to her and whispered.
"Maybe. Or, maybe not? Only one way to find out."