What we leave behind - For the love of the game.

# He is wearing a crisp formal shirt coupled with well ironed pants. And his eyes are trained on his laptop. The AC has pretty much chilled him numb.A white ceiling and a small square cubicle surrounds him. And, there are an infinite such cubicles in that office. Unread files are piled up on his table. He glances at the clock impatiently. It's his payday.

# Auditions. Practising for intra as well as inter-college fests. Winning. Power naps on benches. Poker at nights. Britannia biscuits and water melons(big ones and the ones in the paper cup). A hundred hands scooping porottas. Getting messed up and dirty after cleaning different places inside college. Hands dipped in paint. Fevicol on your cheeks. Hands scarred from lifting benches.  Water fights. Theypu and Chalis. Half sleepy, slightly drunk and fully insane. Proudly flashing badges.(Neatly printed as well as handmade). Running around. Dancing at night. Making new words.(Mandip. Mandip. Mandip.). Night outs. And the early morning food from the hotels and the thattukadas at Kattangal, Mukkom and Kunnamangalam. Planning and preparing. The "Feel". Treats afterwards. And the bonds. And the pride. And posing together for photographs in weird and wacky ways.
    

What we leave behind - The invisible hands.

 I am a writer or at the very least, I would like to think of myself as one. And perhaps, the best gift I can give back to my college as I graduate along with my batch would simply be my thoughts. So, here starts a series.

# A swarming horde of NITC-ians surround the Baby Memorial Hospital. A small accident with a student here involved. His really close friends are helping out. While most of the others stand by, to give assistance, if  needed. Not many who have come may know the person well enough but they still do come. Even if it's of no use. Even if it's a mere formality. An impulse of humanity? Showing off? No one's sure.

# Between the main canteen and the administrative building, lies a forgotten piece of land. And it's not just the rusty piece of REC board that has been recently taken off. "In memory of" states the enclosures surrounding a host of dried up plants so far apart from our daily hectic lives.

# I recently had an argument with my friend, who criticised my college by saying that SnehaRagam is conducted for publicity(as are all social initiatives of other cultural fests). I just reflected her statements onto the happiness I saw on those kids' faces on being to able perform, get trophies and have fun. Does motives really matter when what it results in is that kind of happiness?

#Shekharettan, the acting steward of F-Hostel is known for boring the inmates with his long talks. One day, I got caught up in a conversation with him, where he talked about students of the older generation. He talked about how they used to chitchat with him over a cup of tea nearly every day. Vijayettan of MC had said something similar a few weeks back. Shekarettan also described in length to me about the hardships he has to face, his low wages, his court cases and his son. It's obvious that these days, he doesn't have many people to talk to.

And, we would graduate in 46 days, as human beings. Engineers, yes. But, much more as human beings.

Ragam: Frequently Asked Questions.

Q: Except for Choreonite and FS, Ragam allows home participation. Why?

Valid question. Firstly, let me clarify that even though we do participate in events like Streetplay, Mime etc, we have taken great pains to ensure that a neutral jury is appointed to judge the different events. Of course, there has been one or two rare occurrences of that having faltered in the previous past but they are indeed very rare deviations than the norm. Of course, I haven't still answered the question. Why? And, to answer that, I would have to describe to you NIT-C's traditions. At the beginning of every year in January, we conduct an intra-college Ragam audition. The best out of all the first years are selected into the various teams after which, for three successive months, they undergo training and practice from 8 pm to 2 am at night, which as March approaches would extend into 4 am in the morning with an ultimate goal of bagging a pole position for their respective events at Ragam. This would be in addition to the regular classes, they have to attend. This tradition molded itself into shape, in part due to a really hectic schedule, which prevented us from attending other fests en masse. Times have changed but this tradition endures. I believe that my college has one of the best cultural teams in Kerala among engineering colleges and this is a direct resultant of the above mentioned tradition. NIT-C has started participating in other fests in Kerala. But, we still continue to participate at Ragam, especially in team events like the ones already mentioned simply because whereas the rest of the fests are variables, Ragam is a constant and would always happen on March of every year. Hence, the auditions would also be a constant.

Q: Why are there no group registrations for team events?

That is because the total registration fee including event registration and accommodation for three days is what many colleges would charge for accommodation alone. Besides that, we have a really large set of events(around 50). So, there are technical difficulties as well in going for group registration. And, we believe that this time around, we are offering the highest cash prize for a cultural fest in the state of Kerala. These three factors have led us to chuck group registrations.

Q: So, what's so special about Ragam?


Having answered all the above, I will tell you why Ragam is unlike so many other festivals in Kerala. Ragam has been conducted without fail on March of every year since 1987. We have a rich history and tradition behind Ragam, which was started as a singing competition in the memory of Rajan(A name that perhaps every Malayali should be familiar with). Each and every student of NIT-Calicut would have callused his hands doing infrastructure work for Ragam which involves among other things lifting and carrying heavy items to the different venues, cleaning and doing manual labour etc. We were never forced into doing it. We did it on our own. We would eventually progress to become Junior and Senior executives to Managers and Core Committee members. In sum totality, it's a well-oiled machine, you see. And, the things we do and say in the name of Ragam, we do it with a lot of pride.

Our feelings and hardwork aside. 

- We were the first to bring in the big names of the bollywood music industry to Kerala.

- We were among the first to conduct social initiatives as a part of our cultural fest in Kerala.

- We are pretty much still the only ones to conduct such a wide variety of workshops including dance   workshops(Salsa, Bachata, Jive, Tango), mocktail mixing workshops, archery, shooting, Nikon certified photography workshops and many more.

- We were among the first to introduce adventure sports like soap football, kart racing etc.

- 360 Degrees has become a brand name and created quite a stir in the online photography circuits.

- Some of our event formats are widely accepted to be the best in Kerala and right now, we are offering the highest total cash prize for event winners of a cultural fest in Kerala. We also have a range of goodies from FastTrack and Reliance waiting for the event winners this year.


Q: Why do you guys get super annoyed when people criticise Ragam?


How would you feel when your college fest is criticised unfairly especially when you have poured your sweat and blood into it?We are not perfect. We do have miles to go before we achieve that milestone. Do understand that in the course of chasing dreams, we do end up making our share of errors. We sincerely apologise and hope that you would it take it in a light manner. Of course, constructive criticisms are always welcome. ;)

SAC iT

 Somebody I once knew remarked that our institution, NIT-C was perfect. He would shout it loud and clear   to about a hundred or so people participating in a debate in which he would in a very euphemistic(The difference between "The guy is dead" and "The guy passed away.") way be thrown metaphorical tomatoes. I never understood why he stood adamant on that point except for the sake of putting up a strong front for the ensuing debate. But, over time, I have atleast learnt about the perspective he put forth.  Just check out the other institutions in and around our country.

Now, it's a known fact that the Students Affairs' Council has somewhat limited powers or as some might say, none at all. Let's take a look at the different institutions in and around the world. Where exactly does students have unlimited powers? To some respect, in institutions, where student organisations under actual political parties play it out. From experience, we all know that power comes from intimidation and the ability to raise up a ruckus at short notice. From experience, we also know that such power is accountable to none and prey to the influence of the parent political organisations. We do not wish it for our institution. So, we have staunchly resisted such incursions even though there has been plenty. We have always had people from outside trying to mediate into our conflicts.

And, so since we do not have the one thing, that can shake things up, we are left on a little bit of shaky ground. The only thing we do have is a bumbling Students Affairs Council. It can perhaps get only things half done and in an extreme scenario as a critic pointed " is nothing but a front for the administration to claim that students are given representation." We can all agree that the ball bounced wrongly for us when it came to the Students Council. But, do we sit and cry? Or, do we take it and run?

"If the SAC calls, students will back them up." is one another cry that has floated for long in the air. Now, even if we do not suspect anybody's good intentions, we do need to ask one question. To what extent, would an average student stick out his neck for something good to happen in this college? Will he be willing to risk his academic life for effective health services in college? Maybe. Would he do the same for better sports facilities? Hmm.

But, you know what? That does not make the sum and substance of what a student can do. One of the interesting and very sensible suggestions that was given to the SAC was to shift the holidays such that people would be able to enjoy Christmas. Compared to many other suggestions, it was something that we thought would benefit everybody. So, we pursued it earnestly. The Dean(Academic) however stopped us on track. And, he did not do so for the heck of it either. He had a very solid reason. A shift in winter holidays would also mean a corresponding shift in summer holidays, which would put the working days onto the driest months of the year around here resulting in acute water scarcity.

Why did I bring out this example? I would like to point to all student members of the men's hostels regarding the conditions of the all leaky taps. Most of us have done nothing about it. It does not take a petition to SAC to change the situation. It only requires a written complaint to the steward. And, so we fail to do the simple things we can do and sit up to dream about the big revolutions that the college should undergo. We also without fail criticise everything under the sun. Now there are exceptions. I have seen a person tie up the tap with a LAN cable, thus tightening it and preventing the leakage. I have also seen broken pens being inserted into the latches of bathrooms without bolts so that not only the person doing it but also the general public may benefit. Respect.

Enough criticism of the menfolk. Let me extend a fair share to the women around here as well. It's not a stinging criticism but something that I observed, so do bear with me. A march was organised by our womenfolk for the victim of the Delhi rape case. Though I did not earlier believe in such candle light vigils and marches, I see that the trickles of protest throughout the country has had a resounding victory in the end report of the Justice Verma Commission since the ruling government would be pretty much forced to act on this report. I also agree that due to a certain bit of misunderstanding with the guys, there was not enough support for your march.(And that girls were ironically eveteased even during the march). Apologies. That shouldn't have been a case. However(And do correct me if I am wrong), it's been nearly one and half years since a woman faculty(or a research scholar) died in this institution due to mysterious circumstances. Now, we cannot comment on how it happened because we indeed can never be sure of how it did. But, for a name that got mudslinged by the news media that tried to sensationalise it(A news media does not have the right to poke into a victim's private affairs.), I did not see a single response from the same section. Where did your sense of justice go? I remind you of the Aarushi Talwar case where all the girl students in her school organised a candlelight vigil to issue a statement to the media to stop with its sensationalism.

*If there is an aspect unknown to the author regarding the former paragraph, the author apologises and promises to correct it as soon as somebody points it out*

And, again the above was not something directed solely to the women because indeed, we are all hypocrites.  We all react in a similar manner(including the author). So in light of all these, the next time you raise your voice, ask yourselves one thing. Do you have the right to raise your voice?

Of course, then you would ask me. Who has the right to raise his voice here? I will tell you who. Those people who took care of the latches and water taps have that right. That guy who ran around for Ragam and did all the Jo-Co work without ever being officially called that due to certain circumstances has the right to raise his voice. Those people toiling night and day for intra-college events, with perhaps little mention of their names do. Those people organising extra-mural talks through different associations for the benefit of the students do. Heck, people who did just about anything without giving a damn about their names being applauded by the student mob does.

Because, let's face it. They care about the college. Instead of creating a ruckus and showing everyone that they do give a damn, they just do what they can in their own quiet way.

PS: In the end, to my fellow branch Councillors, I have only thing to say. The Executive Council does not make up the SAC. So, haul your asses to the next meeting and participate. Work in tandem with the executive council. If we each do our bit, it would never guarantee that everything's going to be fine. But, it's better than nobody doing anything at and then putting the blame on each other.

To do.

This is somewhat inspired from a previous post of mine as well something I saw from the archives at MIT. Apparently, these people distribute a 101-things-to-do-at-MIT list to the freshers there. So, here goes. Some of them are stuff I never did, but then.

1. A walk from Kunnamangalam to our college at night after 12. [ ]
2. Eating egg bhajis from MC the night before exams. [ ]
3. Planning a trip to places like Manipal, Gokarna or Goa at the very last minute and then executing it under a shoestring budget. [ ]
4. Lifting benches for Tathva and Ragam during first year. [ ]
5. Staying back during vacations under the pretense of Ragam or Tathva work and then playing Poker and Mafia without any respite, well into the night. [ ]
6. Doing something embarrassing and getting hooted at by the crowd during first year fests like Sangam and Debutante. [ ]
7. Discovering and developing a skill you thought you never had [ ]
8. Forgetting CGPA for once and delving into a subject because you really like it. [ ]
9. Creating something. Say, a remote toy helicopter. Or, a terrific software program. Engineers, aren't we? []
10. Getting into one of those clubs and taking pride in how it defines. And, swearing to lock horns with anybody who says anything remotely bad about the club. Not to forget the night-outs spend in making the club events a success. [ ]
11. Chanting "Idi naadham muzhangatte.." together with a bunch of your college mates when you go representing NIT-C to another one of those inter-collegiate fest. [ ]
12. Celebrating Onam traditionally in the afternoon and mud-style in the evening. [ ]
13. Dancing in the rain. [ ]
14. Dancing in the Rajpath to prevent the crows from shitting at you and then getting shitted on irrespective of all that dancing. [ ]
15. Taking a bucket and pouring a mixture of rum, vodka, whisky, brandy and beer into it. And, then dipping a glass into it, praying to the lord almighty and drinking it. [ ]
16. Drinking delicacies around here like Avil Milk. [ ]
17. A visit to Chechi's and Pappachan's. [ ]
18. Living on a Rs. 100 for a week. [ ]
19. Going to the forbidden MB rooftop. [ ]
20. Playing a wild April fool prank on the institute. [ ]
21. Going for an insane branch tour after dealing with all the difficulties with respect to permissions. []
22. Going behind a member of the opposite sex and making a debacle out of it. And never accepting the fact that you got rejected, saying something like "He/She does not deserve me. ". [ ]
23. Falling in love with CREC and this institution's history. [ ]
24. Being a part of a meeting at the ELHC pits. [ ]
25. Getting your hair ruined at the barber shops in Kattangal. [ ]
26. Going into deep discussions regarding the inner meaning of life with your roommates. [ ]
27. Wearing formals for placements and absolutely hating it. [ ]
28. Showing up at FS auditions and infuriating everybody by walking like a duck. [ ]
29. Ending up in Students Affairs Council and dealing with everybody including faculty and students yelling at you for righteous reasons. [ ]
30. Watching meteor showers from the OAT. [ ]
31. Sleeping inside the OAT at night, staring at the stars in the night sky. [ ]
32. Playing in the fourz ground. [ ]
33. Visiting the gymkhana at NIT-C and getting horrified by all the biceps and bulges. Vowing to never again go there. [ ]
34. Getting raw eggs smashed all over you on your birthday and getting ass whooped the same day. [ ]
35. Standing up for your friends. [ ]
36. Publishing a newsletter which declares that the institute is the next anti-christ, converting yourself into a symbol like the batman and laughing your ass off when nobody's looking. [ ]
37. Waking up at 7:59 and entering class at 8:00.
38. Running around for condonation towards the latter part of your sem.
39. Going to atleast one exam without studying anything and actually bullshitting your way out of it. [ ]
40. Taking up a sport and playing it for the love of the game. [ ]
41. Drinking steaming hot tea in the morning hours from the thattukada at kattangal when everybody else is  asleep [ ]
42. Keeping in touch with the outside world through the media and having an opinion on everything from the civil strife in Mali to women safety in Delhi. [ ]
43. Giving back to the society through NSS or any other initiatives. [ ]
44. Teaching the less privileged students in and around your institution. [ ]
45. Going hungry for days in a row in the name of conducting an inter-college event like Ragam or an intra-college club event. [ ]
46. Sitting in and around rajpath with your friends as the dusk slowly converts itself into night. [ ]
47. FIFA and Counterstrike. [ ]
48. Never letting go of your dreams. [ ]
49. Promising yourself to change the world and not go down a comfortable or safe path. [ ]
50. Knowing that this institution or its administration is not perfect but taking insane pride in being from NIT-C. And, wearing that pride like a badge of honour. [ ]

I guess you would probably be able to add a million more.

The Literary and Debating Club

For all who would care to shed prejudices and to read this blog from a neutral point of view.

Throughout this post, I am going to ignore the fact that I am from L&D and analyse the surge of criticisms from a neutral point of view.

The first one is a facebook page dedicated to memes regarding NIT-C, which poked fun at L&D twice. I do not remember the former meme. The latter basically said something to the effect of L&D holding proper meetings but ending up conducting events that made half the people in college sleep off in comparison to other clubs which held fun events.( I hope I got the gist of it).

The second one was from a particular individual who got a bit worked up regarding the vague posters that the club put up recently and who was genuinely concerned that the club was deviating from its main aim. Literary events having proper standards.

Now, here's something interesting. It's for a fact that a majority of the student population(say 75%) would prefer having fun, doing wacky dance steps and enjoying their hearts out with a group of friends than having intellectual debates which sometimes go on a higher plane or taking part in full fledged literary activities. My point is that the two criticisms are mutually exclusive. It would require an inhuman effort to pull both of them simultaneously. So, let's give the current members of L&D a bit of leeway. They are trying to achieve that balance.

Now, I don't believe that any club is NIT-C is perfect or have pulled off anything without faults. And, they needn't have to do that. They aren't meant to be professional. If you are selected into one of them, it's not because you have its domain qualities oozing out of your blood. You have been selected because of one of the three below.

1) You have the potential that can be developed  and you showcased it in an intra-college event.
2) You are a team player.
3) You have a bit of everything in you. A leader. A workaholic. And perhaps lots more.

So, you may have one of the qualities and still not get selected. Bad luck.
And, in certain exceptional cases, you may not be selected due to oversight. Bad luck again.

Bottomline. A club or a club member needn't be perfect. A club in NIT-C lingo is where similar-minded people get selected into, gel with each other, conduct a bunch of events as professionally as they can, develop their skill set and eventually leave with a bundle of good memories.

Now, back to the criticisms. I will accept the ones by the meme page because honestly I believe it was in good spirit. No swearing or dramatising. Just pointing out something that occurred to them. I will again accept the gist of the criticism that the individual I mentioned above spoke about. L&D needs to improve and that it will.

But, here's my point to the same person and the people who commented on the status.

1) Swear words and getting personal will not help you. It just emphasises your class.  Put your criticism neatly and plainly. Create a discussion instead of ranting out or shut the fuck up.

2) Excepting one or two, I haven't seen any of the individuals commenting on the status participating in other competitions of the same stature including the ones at Ragam. Participate. Talk to people who organise such events and understand the umpteen difficulties involved. Don't cross-examine people without understanding what it is to be like at the other end.

3) What's the poster about?  Have some patience. It's a pre-poster to an interesting event(which according to my opinion falls under a classic literary event)and I expect all of you who criticised the club to be there. Man up. I will definitely be watching and I am definitely going to call your bluff if you don't turn up after having lamented about the club's plight.

Cheers.


PS: lund ninte thantha.

The Cape.

"Grandma, was he a hero, like Spiderman and Batman?"asked Rihan.
"Haha. Now, how in the world did you find that out?"
"I knew it. I knew it. I knew it". Rihan started running around excitedly.
"So, did Grandpa have a cape?"
Roshni smiled."Yes, he did."

"I don't know, Rosh. He's got to make you swoon, you know. Butterflies-in-the-stomach." Lola remarked.  Roshni sniggered. " And that's how you decide who's perfect for you?" 
"Yeah Yeah. Laugh Laugh. But, I do not want him or whatever it is between us to be ordinary. Out-of-the-world, it should be. Oh! And we should have all these cute things, you know, between us that others wouldn't understand. And, I don't know. It must be heavenly every second of every hour of every day.."
" I get it. I get it. You will settle for nothing less than a Greek God with a cranky brain"
" Who said anything about Greek Gods? Of course, not that I don't prefer the toned bulges.."
"Oye, Lola. There are roughly a billion people on Earth, right?"
"Yeah. So?"
"And supposedly, there's only one perfect guy. What if you don't get him?"
"It might take some time. But, he'll come to me." her friend winked.

All that jumping around must have made him tired, Rihan was sleeping in his bed. Roshni got up and walked towards the dining hall. The framed family photo, hung on one of the walls, caught her attention. She moved closer to the photo. It was looking a bit lopsided. Probably Rihan's handiwork, she thought and yet she couldn't help ponder over how he had reached the frame. It was kept at a height where it would be difficult for him to reach even if he used chairs. She adjusted the frame. The photo was taken  two years ago at her younger daughter's wedding. He wasn't there in the photo. He never did like his photo being taken and always found some excuse to slip away at the last moment.

"Rosssshhhh."
"Lolllaaa."
"I am getting marriedddd today. Damn. It's such a jittery feeling."
"Well, it's to your Prince Charming, the one you have always dreamt about. So, no need for the jitters."
"That's a stupid term. But, this definitely is the dream. A long, blissful relationship ending up in a whirlwind marriage. Hey! You fared okay too. You are going to get engaged."
"Yeah, well. Nothing whirlwind about it. An ordinary arranged marriage with a quiet nerd that my parents got for me."
"I can't imagine you signing off in an arranged marriage with a quiet, nerdish guy. You always do surprise me. What's the twist in this tale and when do I get to meet him? "
" Hehe. No twists there. I am content. I never was up for the butterflies-in-the-stomach thing. And, yeah why not next week?"

Roshni seated herself in the reclining chair in the dining hall. Her thoughts strayed off to her husband, who had passed away an year ago. Pneumonia. She remembered the final stages. He had taken it very calmly and silently like he always did. He did not betray it much but he liked having Roshni around during that time. And she found it comforting to be near him. It was weird not to have him around these days.

" I hate you" She threw the plate at him. He ducked right in time. "And, I don't want to go through this pregnancy." She burst into tears.Seven months into her pregnancy, she had caught a fever. And to add to it, even though she was allowed a maternity leave, she was entrusted with some important work to be done from home for which the deadline was today. He came near and squeezed her hand. "Rest for sometime now. I'll prepare a bowl of soup."  She went and lay down on her bed. As she slowly drifted off into sleep, she could hear him talking on the phone. She could only catch the words 'extend deadline' and 'not well'. 

Her two granddaughters burst into the room and broke her reverie.
"Gayu, I do not understand why you go gung ho about Valentine's day. All those frilly hearts make me puke.
It's just another day for people to make money. "
" But, that's not the point. I mean the money-making and frilly hearts. It's just a day to celebrate relationships. You celebrate womanhood on International Women's Day. Why not celebrate 'love'?"
"Ugh. You are so mushy."
"I am not. C'mon, let's ask grandma."
"Ha. She will support my arguments. I know her well enough."
They turned towards her.
"Hey, Gran.."
She interjected before Gayu could complete the sentence.
"You know, dear. Your grandpa did actually have a cape."
" Kids, let her get some rest. Help me with the chores." Gayu's mom yelled from the next room.
And, so they shuffled past their grandma, resolving to settle their dispute later.